isolation

day 7 of isolation…. everyday has been a blur it’s all been rolled into one, i wouldn’t say my mental health has been tested i’d say more numbed. i don’t have any emotion towards anything or anyone and for once i’m happy. i’m a health care assistant for the NHS and i just think theContinue reading “isolation”

Words are everything

you can scream you can cry. you can punch things or at least try. but the truth is people’s words effect us in many ways. So much they linger in our minds for days. People say they don’t care what others think. So why is it when someone pisses you off you instantly reach forContinue reading “Words are everything”

them down days

We all have them. Where we don’t wanna get up out of bed. Where we don’t wanna get dressed. Where we wanna stay led In the dark. Not necessarily because we are down or sad but sometimes just because we don’t feel up to anything. It’s okay to have them sorts of days. It’s okayContinue reading “them down days”

today is completely different

Woke up this morning feeling like a complete heap of shit. I just can’t seem to get out of it. I go to work. I go to the gym. I see my friends. I have a good life. I don’t even know why I feel the way I do. But I feel like a slob.Continue reading “today is completely different”

a day in a carers life

Being a Carer is exactly what it says in the name. caring…. it’s a lot more than taking people to the toilet. It’s a lot more than feeding those who can’t them selves. It’s being a friend. It’s being someone they love. It’s being someone they trust. Someone they rely on. Someone they want toContinue reading “a day in a carers life”

being lied to.

Being lied to is officially the most disappointing thing. It’s that ‘ I’m not angry I’m just disappointed ‘ feeling. It’s quite heart wrenching. But it’s also quite degrading. Because it means you wasn’t worth the truth. That hurts more. Whenever you have a gut feeling always trust it as I always do and 80%Continue reading “being lied to.”

Bumping into the past when your at peak

Ever seen an ex when you least expect it? A previous encounter that didn’t end so good? A previous encounter that never really ended at all? Someone you spoke to for a little while saw a few times but then it fizzled out? Now tell me… How amazing does it feel when your feel atContinue reading “Bumping into the past when your at peak”

life being with a narcissist

when I was 16 when I met my ex. We will call him M. Ok so when I met M he was actually a friend of a friend and he wasn’t someone I ever found attractive but he was so cheeky and cocky and I loved that. I was warned by a few that heContinue reading “life being with a narcissist”

Weight. Why it ruins us inside.

Going right back to when I was 16. I was stick thin and I’d just left high school and I still thought I was fat!!!!!! Here is what I thought was fat… This was my prom… yeah exactly. Nothing to me. It’s mad how every time you look in the mirror you just see aContinue reading “Weight. Why it ruins us inside.”