isolation

day 7 of isolation…. everyday has been a blur it’s all been rolled into one, i wouldn’t say my mental health has been tested i’d say more numbed. i don’t have any emotion towards anything or anyone and for once i’m happy. i’m a health care assistant for the NHS and i just think theContinue reading “isolation”

Words are everything

you can scream you can cry. you can punch things or at least try. but the truth is people’s words effect us in many ways. So much they linger in our minds for days. People say they don’t care what others think. So why is it when someone pisses you off you instantly reach forContinue reading “Words are everything”

New beginnings

So I’ve officially got a new job starting in the nhs and I can honestly say I feel relieved about a new beginning. I love knowing I’ve achieved something else. I love the fact it’s a new journey. Something different. Something to learn. New things to be seen heard and shown. 2020 is definitely goingContinue reading “New beginnings”

Disheartening…

It’s so disappointing when people you thought were your friends turn out to be just fake phoneys. It’s so sad when you put your all into everything and everyone and always end up let down and disappointed. The truth is not everyone has the same morals as you and not everyone has the same heartContinue reading “Disheartening…”

them down days

We all have them. Where we don’t wanna get up out of bed. Where we don’t wanna get dressed. Where we wanna stay led In the dark. Not necessarily because we are down or sad but sometimes just because we don’t feel up to anything. It’s okay to have them sorts of days. It’s okayContinue reading “them down days”

today is completely different

Woke up this morning feeling like a complete heap of shit. I just can’t seem to get out of it. I go to work. I go to the gym. I see my friends. I have a good life. I don’t even know why I feel the way I do. But I feel like a slob.Continue reading “today is completely different”

a day in a carers life

Being a Carer is exactly what it says in the name. caring…. it’s a lot more than taking people to the toilet. It’s a lot more than feeding those who can’t them selves. It’s being a friend. It’s being someone they love. It’s being someone they trust. Someone they rely on. Someone they want toContinue reading “a day in a carers life”

being lied to.

Being lied to is officially the most disappointing thing. It’s that ‘ I’m not angry I’m just disappointed ‘ feeling. It’s quite heart wrenching. But it’s also quite degrading. Because it means you wasn’t worth the truth. That hurts more. Whenever you have a gut feeling always trust it as I always do and 80%Continue reading “being lied to.”

Bumping into the past when your at peak

Ever seen an ex when you least expect it? A previous encounter that didn’t end so good? A previous encounter that never really ended at all? Someone you spoke to for a little while saw a few times but then it fizzled out? Now tell me… How amazing does it feel when your feel atContinue reading “Bumping into the past when your at peak”

Instagram – so addictive but soul destroying

Everyone loves Instagram. Scrolling, hash tagging, watching what your favourite celebs are upto? Following your friends and family on all their adventures. Shopping for just about absolutely anything. The fact you can message absolutely anyone on the Instagram web. Amazing right? But Instagram can actually take over your mind. Destroy your soul. Take away anyContinue reading “Instagram – so addictive but soul destroying”